M.I.S.S.I.N.G

There are many things I have been missing alot lately...

I miss my rabbit back in Miri...

I miss my family so much though I'm goin back this comin' thursday...

I miss my days when I was an athelete...

Those days were totally awsome...

i won medals by medals...

most of them were "GOLD"

arrRRggHH...!!!

I miss my sporty life!!

wish can go back to school...

i miss my dad..

i miss my days in KEM PRINCESS HALIZA, SEPANG...

I miss Mickey and Brownie...

I miss hanging around with my fwens in mIri...

I miss my backyard...

I miss driving mom's car without she knowin' it..

i miss chillin' around with my kazens...

i miss skateboarding...

i miss swimming...

i miss! i miss! i miss!!!!!

aduuuuuhhh.....!

seriously I miss everything!

~xoxoxoxo~

You Told Me in A Dream You Always Loved Me....

You told me in a dream you always loved me.

I wept with joy at what with joy you said.

My sadness was not there.

It was so lovely.

And with you was my darling, also dead.

The sky was with an early sunrise burning,

Yet still with ample darkness for the moon,

Which held the secret of its youthful yearning

Although it knew that it would vanish soon.

How wonderful, I thought, at last to hear you

Say what I had known but never heard!

Abandoned, I have long longed to be near you

And find my long-lost refuge in a word.

I saw the truth of it within your eyes

And blessed the dream that ends but never dies.

ps: HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MAMY...

"another day to go on with"

move on an keep on move on..
sometimes it is just so hard to face another day...
no wonder there were people who dare to commit suicide..
it makes me think..
why life must be so hard, so difficult, so challenging, so frustrating???
it makes other hate themselves more..
it makes people feel down of themselves when ever they're not strong..
i want to understand that...
i want changes in life..
my life, other people lifes....
strenght, love, courage and enthusiasm what create life to its' best..
when you say you love someone, how much does it exactly means to you???
till which level will you sacrifice for your loves one?
sometimes being selfish is also good when you know how to use it..
i live my life by bothering to care about others....
i care about how they feel what they want and what they need..
perhaps sometimes i wont be able to fulfill everything
but at least i am there to listen to every words they eager to tell others who willing to hear..
but i forgot that i never care anything about me...
but i am always fine with it as i have my dearest Jesus with me..*winking*
there are people who lost their loves one...
some of them still can survive without the person whom they love so much are no longer around...
but some are not...
i lost my dad when i was 17...
doctor said he was unable to survive because of heart attack...
3 years has passed by but i still feel his presence around me..
i can say that i am among those whom sometimes can be very stubborn to accept reality and facts cause those two words can be very heart-tearing...
i still cry even until now for losing my dad..
he's the best!
but i have to move on...
i hope other people are like me..
that's how life suppose to be..
we came in alone and with nothing to the earth...
and that is how we will leave it one day..
perhaps dady is watching over me...
i always pray that dady is with HIM up there...

p/s: "dear Lord, i pray that my dady's soul is rested in peace as he is joining Your kingdom for now and forever. give me strenght and wisefull thought as i am living in this world walking every steps i have. lead me dear Father, as i kneel on my knee and giving up all my body and soul to you Lord, let everything that will happen is as how You want it to be for me..."

FRIEND, FRIEND, FRIEND, ANDDD...

"bon2 and Abiey"

we're at the rainforest 08'

"roomate ku yang krek..Atie..."

"ungly bettys"

"pasangan ideal"

wawawwa...friends jer la....

"at alan salon"



"our dear atek"

"after prom nite"

"bon2 and yen"

"mima and bon"

"nice ah..."

"we love each other"

*P0werpuff Gurlz*

i met them 2 years ago...

my first week in UiTM wasnt that bad..

i have friends there anyway...

but i still remember in that particular 1st week, she came to me asking where was the class...

well, we started to be coursemate since then..

LOL~

her name is Annalea Kennedy...

we prefer call her *Atek*...

nama glamour bha...

she told me that * atek* actually means *cantik*..hehehe..suite her then...

she is our "BLOSSOM"

this another person was met to me not by coincident...

my dearest friend Esther Ruran asked me to find her..

WOW~

she's totally NERD!!!

hahahhahahahaahaha...!!!!LOL~

it was before...

she's beautiful,tall,obssesive,crazy,childish and fun to mingle with...

she's my roomate since we were in Part 2...

I knew alot about her...

well, she is "BUBBLE"!!!!

*guess who's "BUTTERCUP"???

we've been through alot of things together..

some were sad, some were happy, some fulll with hatred, and sometimes full with adventures...

well, here are ten things you should know about us:

1. we love shoppinggggggg!!!
2. we talk bout' gurls...
3. we make fun of others....
4. we play make-over alottttt.....
5. we love long-day sleep...
6. we kissed each other..LOL~
7. we're real sisters..
8. we dont have same interest usually..*funny*
9. we are all the eldest in our own family...we correct other people grammartical errors and pronounciation during presentation!
10. we laugh at others

yes, we are friends, BFF for sure...

but we are different..

we dont have same interest, we argue, we criticise, but we areee....

"THE POWERPUFF GIRLS"

Trip to Kampung Mongkos, Serian

4 days 2ytes....
those days were rough...
da best part, i have "family"!!! (mcm anak terbiar jak)
i was barefooted while walking in the jungle within dat 4 days..!~gowshh....!!!

LOL~
funny bha actually...

here are some pieces of experiences that u guys might wanna see...

DAY 1~

Arriving...hehehe..Nurid syuk abis la yah.wawawa....

cita2 wit mdm joe n miss silver..*evon carik koyong sowang2*

picnic time, everyone!!!

handicraft nite! these are such cool stuffs...

DAY 2~

Fuh! this was the most killing day for all of us. we went for jungle trekking which was not actually jungle but most likely, was actually mountain...

we were punked by the villagers..*winking+laughing*

But it was totally AWSOMEEEEeeee!!!!!
Check it out!!!

enthusiacticccc.....*can you see???*

my coursemate.they know how to enjoy too. LOL~

our london boy turned into rainforest indian native.HAHAHA!!!

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picnic again guys???

this was very tiring..trust me...FUH!

DAY 3~

we went to the Indonesian Border, and seriously, I was barefooted all the way!!!

I would never ever gonna forget that experience...

but it was cool cause i managed to get to Kalimantan Indonesia withourt any passport.LOL~

at night, we had our Farewell Night with the villagers...

we dance, we sing, we laugh, we were having so much fun...

enjoy..!!!

guess what are these??

crabby patty???

one lost Indonesian.LOL~

we're Indonesian...!!!! Rakyat Segumun!

.....us.....

responsible people..but not those two from the left.hehehe....

the villagers...our fathers....*winking*

Bidayuh Traditional Dance

"Extremely Fantastic, Exciting Experiences"

DAY 4~

This was our last day...

....hmmmm.....sad you know?

but i know we left our footprints there...

"as an remenbrance for eternity"

scenery from the top of the hill

sayin' goodbye to our mom + nephew...Bye2..

my siblings with our dad.well, not permanently...LOL~

anyway, anyhow, we still remember all of you...

i miss my family there, especially my nephew, Ryan..

thank you for the hand-made braceletttt..

i like it so much!

i still have it you know???

You're such a sweet kid...

God bless all of you...

~xoxoxo~

Diploma in Tourism Management, UiTM Samarahan (Part 4_2009)

well, i've been here since July 2007. currently in part 4. well, life is always about up and down. thats da rule to survive...

well,these were us. still budak2.LOL~ our year in semester 2, 2008.

some still surve, some went to find their own destiny...

these are the boys. joel is no longer with us, but he's doin great somewhere else. keep it up bro!!!

my years with all of you were such an enjoyable experience,

we've gone through alot together,

we do cry,

we do laugh,

we do make fun,

we do hate,

but those what makes the bond stronger than you can imagine...

hope to see you guys at graduation day,

a year from now...

~xoxo~